wheeee

you ever have a day when random shit just keeps scrolling thru your brain? thats been my day. going thru training at my new job, its very classroom-like, so i have a tendency to want to fall asleep. so random thoughts will go willy nilly thru my head. i painted my nails with a yellow highlighter. thinking of the crap we've been over. while random final fantasy things ran thru my head. the experience points i got on my ranger earlier yesterday. the skill up party i had last night. almost 20 levels on marksmanship. the snoll fight i have coming up friday. the crap i gotta get for it. the gil i need in game. gil is money btw. all this and im thinking about tamara's eating habits(which suck at the moment). her sleeping habits (which are almost as bad at the moment) what she ate last night, what we ate last night. what i ate for breakfast. what i ate for lunch. easter is coming up, and shes going to church with andrews grandma, so have to make sure she gets up extra early so she can also go to breakfast. have to pretty-fy her (which really isnt that hard) also its easter, so she's getting an easter basket with candy(which im starting to have second thoughts about the candy) and goodies, a bunny, and a swim suit. an adorable PINK strawberry shortcake TWO (2) piece swim suit. did i mention that i myself abhore pink? i think its a hideous color. it doesnt look good on me. but for some strange reason tamara looks absolutely gorgeous in it. hmmm i have heard that andrew looks pretty good in pink, maybe thats it. >.> i think of the last movie (s) i saw. the last mimzy and meet the robinsons. both TOTALLY awsum movies. i think about what little tv i see. what book i may have read for a few minutes this week. which really sucks because im a readaholic, and i dont hardly get to read at all anymore. altho i did fairly recently get the belgariad. truly wonderful books. the good dreams (few and far between) the bad dreams (a truly god awful amount) and the uniquely bizarre ones. oh, and tamaras birthday is coming up in 1 week. ONE WEEK!!! SHES GONNA BE TWO!!! ITS BEEN ALMOST 3 YEARS SINCE SHE WAS CONCEIVED!! HOW THE HELL DID TIME FLY SO DAMNED FAST. shes growing too fast. taller than kids her age, and kids taller O.o and shes WAY too damned smart. ye gods. i dont even want to get into that one.

ok, im gonna stop listing all the crap that runs thru my mind, but you get the idea. lifes been... overall good. ive had some pretty crappy days, and some pretty crappy moments. ive also had some truly wonderful ones. like when andrew buys me a huge 1/2 gallon-like thingy of cold stone; strawberry-banana rendevous, with sprinkles and extra graham stuff. like when some1(family) comes and says, can i take tamara for a few hours? or, like when tamara knows im having a really shitty moment, and comes over to me, pets/pats me, hugs me, and says 'i love you mommy' then kisses me. i truly does make it all ok.