free at last free at last, thank god almighty im free at last!

ok, some people may get mad at me for using that as my title but tough shit. :P is what is what i say :P :P :P

i knew as soon as i got my license back that it would make things better, at least for me. id stop having to depend on people to do anything outside the house. wel today, rather than asking andrew to take me to the bank and go pay some bills, i got tamara all dressed up. this really cute purple outfit. pants, shirt, and jacket, with some cute matching sox. got her shoes on, put my hair up in its now semipermanent state of ponytailness. (tamara likes to pull my hair, it cuts down on confrontations with her about it lol) got myself dressed and shoed, grabbed the keys my purse and the needed papers, and we left! went to the bank, deposited my dads check, got money order for the electric bill, got my birthday money from dads check(he said i could pull out the money :P) while all the bank ladies oohd and aahd over my darling gorgeous tamara. then back to the car we go. to the next bank, to pay electric bill. more tamara oohing and aahing. god i love my baby. everyone adores her. everyone who stops to talk to me, or stops me for that matter, ALWAYS comments on how beautiful/cute she is. now, i knew that no matter what, be she ugly, deformed, angelic, normal w/e, i KNEW that i would always think her beautiful. and nothing anyone said would change my opinion. BUT, since everyone says shes absolutely gorgeous, i KNOW she is! ok, enuf egobating lol. egobating is the equivelant of masturbating, but for your ego. usually only guys do it. but girls are known to occasionally commit the act of egobating. ok, im know, im retarded lol.
so then me and tamara went to DQ, you know the wonderful Dairy Queen. got myself and blizzard, and then, b/c i was feeling nice and wanted to make feel happy like i feel happy when i eat my hawaiian blizzard, i got him one. i got him the new mint oreo one. he likes mint and chip ice cream i thought hed like it. oops, my bad. he prefers cookie dough, i forgot >.< but he ate it anyways. after asking me why i got it. but he did thank me for it.
adrienne. as for why so hot and cold. i dont really know. maybe its just that i get so frustrated so quickly now that i rather quickly go to screaming and have steam coming out of my ears. i dunno, i do know have an almost nonexistant tolerance to any bullshit now. it has to do with the depression. i cant handle anything more stressful than a tear coming out of tamara. im workin on it tho. thats what counselors are for, and mine is wonderful. shes just perfect for me. even if i hadnt decided that id tell my counselor all so he/she could best help me, i know that b/c of how she is id be willing to be completely honest with her. me and andrew are still having problems, a big part of the problem is that i dont know exactly what i want him to fix. i know i want him to listen to me. but beyond that. its a big unknown.
and jessica, i really dont appreciate you taking that holier than thou 'tone' with me. andrew isnt pulling the same shit he pulled with you b/c he never pulled any shit with you. your the one that cheated on him 2 times. and left him. 'we' never happened until you left. and me and you didnt get along past the first few months b/c i saw how you really were.
andrew and my relationship is none of your damn business. if we kill each other, great, if we live happily ever after, great, win the lottery, have a brood of 20 kids, great. its none of your business, you have your divorce and money and there is no reason whatsoever for you to have any contact with him or his family ever again. you already fucked up his life enuf.
now, im going to leave it at that, if you wish to continue i will be more than willing to oblige. however, ive refrained from commenting on your blog so far about untruths, and i will continue to if you leave us alone.
thanx, and have a nice day.