Life

ah life. hows it been? lifes been good. relatively. we are all healthy, and have clothes and food and warmth. we are all happy, relatively..... no, mostly happy. i dont have work, so it causes friction, but atm we dont NEED it to have our home and comforts. it is tight tho. still havent developed the pix from florida. i keep forgetting to bring the damned cameras in. and now one of them is missing. i think the child took it. she likes making it flash. and she really like taking pix of the back of the seat in front of her, and her fingers...... anywho. shes growing like a weed, physically, emotionally, and educationally/developementally. i love listening to her talk, even when i cant understand all of what shes saying. her hair is still curly, long as hell. when its wet, it goes almost to her butt. its all shiny and silky. *sigh* shes still driving me nuts with the movies. shes started to burn out the dvd player. if it gets stuck on a spot of a movie that has a scratch, rather than continueing on trying to work, it skips to the next chapter >.< there are chunks of happy feet i havent seen in weeks. shes also started being afraid of under her bed and in her closet. oh, and a few weeks ago we put these door.... handle covers on the door, so she cant open her door, or theresas door. omg did she freak out that first morning it was on. at least now she cant get into coffee/tea/flour etc and 'cook' *im cooking mommy, see?* you cant get mad at her when shes just trying to be like you ya know?

WoW we are still playing wow. i now have a 54 Blood elf Warlock. i stopped my undead as soon as we got the expansion lol. i also have a rogue and a paladin started up on warsong. ive kinda been slacking on sen'jin b/c mom hopped over to warsong to play with us more often lol. im still completely enjoying WoW and have no urge atm to return to FFXI. I can finally cut gems, and now im going to make a mint. ill have SO much money soon ^^ on a slightly side note, andrew rehooked the WII up again. the intent is for me to play WII so he can pass me up in xp lol. i only xp when hes on, and yet i manage to pass him up daily lol. it frustrates him so badly lol.

we brought home some new kitties with us from florida. they are really adjusting nicely to us and our home and abbot. i thought it would take at least a month for him to get used to them. it only took him a few weeks. they still are DESPERATELY shy, but getting better. Demitri follows me around now lol. even tho he wont let me pet him w/o running away. baby steps i tell myself, baby steps. family is doing good. moms playing wow, living (with my sister *barf) who is about to get kicked out b/c she is just dragging mom down. not that i care, but apparently dad is doing good. or so he says. not that he has any reason to tell me truthfully, or tell me anything at all.

awkward sitch... and i prolly shouldnt say anything at all, but none of them read this. andrews mom is engaged to my uncle......... totally weird. i like her, a lot, but i keep feeling like shes taking my aunts place. got her old phone, her car, sleeps in her bed. she CLAIMS she still lives here, and shes still got some shit here, but she hasnt slept here in almost a month, and hasnt spent any significant time here (at least 2 days) since.... before december. been so long i had to think about it! i mean, i dont care one way or the other, but i wish she would just move out, or actually spend time here. tamara misses her momma (her word for grandma) who doesnt even give her a decent hello before she shuts herself in her room. or ignores her while she packs up more stuff to take to my uncles. then leaves. i hate people who claim to care about someone but wont spend any time with them to prove they do. like my dad. hes been by here 3 times and never once set foot in the door. even tho hes like PSYCHOTICALLY careful that andrew isnt here when he stops by.

been having to take my sleeping pills lately b/c i cant sleep when im supposed to. i have also been having some problems with depression. i think this time i may have to take meds. >.< i really hate taking meds. if i had a job, i think it might help, but i just cant find anything right now. im not going to work my ass off at minimum wage to exhaust myself when its not gonna put us enough ahead. its just not worth it. so for now, since we arent in the hole, im just gonna stay at home and enjoy my baby girl. and thats my life for now. im happy with it.