reminiscing

this is my favorite new baby picture of tamara. put up for adrienne, (i was feeling jealous and nostalgic at the same time seeing your new baby pic) and for any other mommys. ive decided since then that i dont really like tamara in yellow, it just doesnt look good on her, or green. she got confused for a boy(she was ONLY 1 1/2 month old, but too damn bad, my baby girl is NOT a boy or ever going to be confused as one again). so green is just not her color. actually, she looks best in a very pale pink or very pale blue. they just look absolutely great on her. i had to grow into pink tho. i hate it. well i used to. but since she looks so great in it, i seem to be getting it A LOT now lol.
hell, i even got pink saphire jewelry for valentines day. its a set, ring/necklace/earrings. i forgot b/c the ring had to get sized, it came in the day after Vday.
my baby girl is almost a year old! shes 10 1/2 weeks old now. i feel. i dunno, happy, ecstatic, wierd lol. this first year has gone by so fast. i wont miss the sleepless nights. hell i dont miss em now b/c shes going thru it again lol. but i do miss her being as cute as she is here. its what makes me wanna have another one. altho im not sure i could handle the crying and up every 2 hours and endless diapers and holding and feeding and the fact that you could go 3 days and not remember anything that happened lol. i do not regret it tho. i love my lil punkin nose(my momma used to call me that and ive found that i use it too. along with sweetpea) to death. love holding her, tickling her, playin peekaboo, chasing her down the hallway on all fours lol. she REALLY loves that one. we found out on accident that she likes being in either my or andrews arms, as we chase the other one, going "oh no! there he/she goes! lets go get her/him! were gonna get you!" while she screams/squeals/giggles ecstatically. its hilarious. i dont know bout yalls kids, but when tamara starts laughing, EVERYONE within hearing starts laughing. im dead serious, ive never hear laughter that infections before. makes me wanna do things she likes, like hanging her upside down, putting her over our shoulders, or the best one yet....... *whispers* jumpin on the bed! i know, horrible isnt it? not even a year old and im already teaching her bad habits lol. ah well, in a few years, ill probably hear her giggling, maybe with a sibling, and ill go back with this mean 'your in trouble' face. ask them in the 'mommy' voice "what are you doing?" and then after hearing them confess, ill join her/them and jump with them lol. it will be a blast and a half.