mommy friends

i have SERIOUSLY got to get some mommy friends. i have no friends whatsoever right now, all i got is family. and sometimes i just wanna talk. well, friends w/o kids just dont understand just about anything im experiencing now, so i dont realy wanna find some regular friends, but im too big of a chicken shit to find some mommy friends. me and andrew have decided that we need to find some1 with a child tamaras age, currently almost 11 months. so someone with a kid between 9-13 months, that way its really close, lots of similarities. do you know how hard this is? not to mention both me and andrew are jealous people. the only 'safe' people are couples that are satisfied with each other. no chance of any complications between couples lol. and see, if we both meet the parents, then they will be OUR friends, not MINE and not HIS. so no conflicts by taking sides just b/c one person or the other is favored. sorry if its confusing. and then there is tamara. tamara needs other kids to play with, not just her cousins. 18 months and 28 months. tamara and kaylee(18 months cousin) get jealous of each other and scream at each other, which, in a way is absolutely hilarious. i love that my daughter sticks up for herself at less than a year old. but i dont want her to evolve into an obnoxious brat. so she needs companionship from someone other than good ol' mommy. and right now im just not ready/able/capable of bringing another child into this world just so tamara has a buddy lol. accidents happen, and if it happens, ill deal, but that my dear readers, is what the pill is for. among other things. like getting rid of acne, curbing pms, and making those debilitating cramps almost nonexistant. i used to have cramps so bad that id double over in pain(no matter where i was, school, church, grocery shopping) or start crying. sometimes both. and i hate people seeing me cry, i dont know why, its natural, but ive never liked ppl seeing me cry. so i get that wonderful pill, and cramps become, 'oh man, i hate these, they are so uncomfortable', instead of 'OMG OMFG OMFG IM GONNA DIE THESE HURT SO BAD!' lol.
maybe, maybe ill start lookin into going to some mommy group something or other just so tamara can get a 'playdate' or we can get parent friends. maybe. i dont like meeting new ppl all that much and im shy as shit. dont want tamara to go over to some baby and start using him as a stand so she can stand up. or pulling down little susie over there whose already standing up so she can get a better look at susies dress/toy/face. im sorry my daughter is a mean little nuisance, shes just curious. -_- *stare* lol