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ok, i love my LS (linkshell), i really do. and the forum is a blast when you cant be on the game. but the server our forum is on is a peice of crap.... no shit. its the worst. its constantly getting overloaded and we cant access our forum. message people in the ls, talk in the forums, and keep in contact with andrew while im at it ^^ but when i cant even get the damned site to load i feel so damned isolated lol.

speaking of work, we start on the phones either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. im a little nervous. mostly nervous b/c i dont know wtf a callers gonna want me to answer and im so worried ill be like 'duh, uh what? huh? what did you say?' like total stage fright thing going on here. we need to just get it outa the way tho. ill stop being nervous after the first few phone calls.

i do like what getting a job has done for us though. we have more money, we arent constantly scraping by. i get away from home, which much as a like it there, when thats all you see day after day after day, you start to go a little crazy. plus that 'away from baby' time that all SAHM's try to squeeze in when hubby gets home so they can shower, maybe read, go to the bathroom, that sorta thing, well i didnt get that. so i was starting to go a little stir crazy. and yes, i do feel bad leaving tamara with caretakers. shes my responsibility, i should be able to do all of it. unfortunately, i am NOT superwomom. yes, i did spell it that way on purpose. so now, instead of tamara's quirks getting on my nerves, i can enjoy them again.

on a much happier note, tamara is damn near running now. she walks. and walks. and walks. and walks. and walks. back and forth from the sliding door to the computer desks and back and back and back. then she grabs ur hand/finger and proceeds to lead you around the house. computer desk to her room and back. oh god does she love being chased though lol. keep one person on the couch as 'safe' spot and someone else, usually me or andrew, growling and going 'RaWr!!!!!' while walking like godzilla and chasing her. she squeals and runs away. its an absolute riot. specially when she runs up to me, grabs my legs, and then goes under/between them to the other side, BEHIND me lol, and then peeks around to see if they are still chasing her lol.

shes also completely on table foods. dont know if i mentioned that. she WONT eat anything resembling baby food. mashed potatoes, apple sauce, any left over baby food we have. she wont touch it. well, she will touch it, and squish it, and smack it. but she wont eat it. but she likes all of it. hell, the other day she dumped a thing of pepper in her mouth and just kept smacking her lips and grinning. she also likes lemons. she makes all those sour mouth pucker up faces, but she puts it right back in her mouth. sweets and salties are also on that list. chips and ice cream, oh yea baby. i love watching her face when she eats something new. and shes so dainty, she eats my strawberry shortcake bars oh so daintily, its so cute i cant help but giggle. maybe ill manage to get this damned camera working, or maybe, since we both working, i can get a new one, and post some more tamara pix. i finally sorta got the scanner working, so bday pix are in the works, but the pix didnt scan to well >.<

ive been MEME tagged ^^

I AM - Blond
I WANT - more time to do non-workish things
I WISH - i got more sleep
I HATE - 8am rush hour
I MISS - late saturday mornings
I FEAR - losing tamara and andrew
I WONDER - if ill ever get married
I REGRET - not meeting andrew sooner in life
I AM NOT - dumb
I DANCE - occasionally, when no one except tamara is looking, and even she giggles at me
I SING - only for tamara, and she still giggles at me
I CRY - at every girly moment in every movie
I AM NOT ALWAYS - with tamara, even though it feels like it ^^
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS - ALMOST all of my daughters food ^^
I WRITE - as little as possible
I CONFUSE - my sister
I NEED - more sleep, AND a shower
I SHOULD - be a little more patient with andrew
I START - every Tamara day with a smile, a kiss, and a hug
I FINISH - every Tamara day with a smile, a kiss, and a hug

I tag YOU!!!
unless of course you tagged me... then of course there are no tag backs are there? ^^

and once again, even tho its late now

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

walking walking everywhere and not a chance in hell she'll stop

well miss munchkin has finally got the hang of walking. she still falls down, but then so do i lol. and she doesnt cry when BOOM! she falls down like some kids/babies do. she just gets right back up and goes at it again. she Really likes walking while holding on to someones finger and dragging them back and forth thru the house giggling the whole time lol.

she also, just this afternoon, managed to get ahold of my box of Life cereal. and opened it. and then proceeded to dig into it lol. eating some of it.... but only some. all the rest of what she ate found its way to the(you guessed it) floor.

and the nightimes. the blessed nightimes. Tamara now sleeps completely thru the night. she will even sleep in till 10 or 11 if i let her. its so wonderful. i never thought this day would come lol. thought id be sleep deprived for the rest of my life. or at least the next few years.

on a different note, i started my job on thursday. just training for now, 4 weeks to be exact. then ill be on the phones. i work in a call center. ima little nervous about answering phones, afraid im gonna like seriously fuck something up, but they will have us with a trainer/supervisor before we do calls on our own, so i really shouldnt worry. but thats me. i worry. about everything.

BTW. Happy Mother's Day all you mommas and grandmommas. my momma sent me a basket with some flowering plants in it. i told her no smelly flowers when she asked me what i wanted for mothers day. i couldnt get her anything this year, but its the first year since i was like 7 that i havent given her SOMETHING for mothers day. But i will call her. its the best i can do.

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and that was tamara insisting on assissting me lol. yes i know i could have erased it but i thought it cuter this way. she really does seem technologically inclined. loves our game systems and computers. not to mention the tv and all its acoutrements. ye gods, and the phones. she wont leave them alone lol.

well, again, HAPPY MOMMA'S DAY and hope your weekend and babies(both young and old) are doing well and happy.

work, yay >.<

well the temp job ended. sorta bad news, but good new, i had an interview on monday, and piss test today(drug screening of course) not that i have to worry about passing, ive never done any illegal drugs in my life. i hate taking pills. and smoking? of any type? nastiness. so yea, this jobs guarenteed now ^^ i start next thursday. training for 4 weeks, then i get to take phone calls. customer service for the phone company... basically anywho lol.

got 2 important days coming up really soon. my little sister(whose BIGGER than me) but younger, is turning 22 this upcoming sunday, and we are broke as fuck, so i cant buy her anything, but i am gonna send her our nintendo 64. yea, i know, not that spectacular, but she loves playing on it, and she doesnt have any games systems, and we have ps2, ps1, gamecube, nintendo, snes, sega genesis, and 3 puters now, so yea, we have plenty to give her. and hell, shed rather get something, ANYTHING than nothing for her birthday lol.

then of course there is mothers day. i havent the slightest clue wtf to get my mom. our phone calls are strained trying to keep it nicey nicey lol. we neither of us wanna argue about things, and there are lots of things we cant talk about or we argue. but all she does is play WoW now. she absofuckinglutely loves it. she plays a wood elf, or night elf or w/e the fuck its called. shes like a tamer or hunter or some shit lol. and she keeps trying to get me to play. i told her i already have 1 life-sucking, energy-draining MMORPG, i dont need another. not yet anyways. if andrew mades tons of money, and munchkin was in school..... maybe, i might think about it.... but then the house would never get done. besides, id rather have like..... KINGDOM HEARTS 2!!! awsum game btw. at least with regular rpg's you can pause and take breaks to do things like eat and clean... maybe even sleep. oh yea, not to mention your FAMILY.

speaking of family, poor little munchkin got her 1 yr shots yesterday. she was NOT happy. her face got so red right before she screamed from the shots i thought she was gonna have an aneurysm or heart attack. shed finally calm down, only to start screaming again. But we are willing to deal with cranky fussy baby if it means she isnt gonna get mumps.... or w/e it is thats breaking out in midwest USA, or chicken pox. i mean, i had a very light case of chicken pox, i only had like 10 pox tops. and i missed the last 2 weeks of 1st grade, it was awsum lol. but today she is happy cheery normal miss tamara. giggling and talking to people and screeching, and doing her cute little warbling sorta talk. god, if i could tape it and put it on here, you'd be grinning such a cheesy big grin. its so cute. and shes almost got the hang of walking all by herself. holding on to things, she can walk no problem, but open spaces kinda daunt her. so she takes about 4-5 steps and gives up and crawls lol.

well, the munchkin is napping(post shots tiredness) so ima play me some sora, donald, and goofy(in other words, KINGDOM HEARTS 2)